Tears, dreams and forevers ❤

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Hello my wonderful readers,

I have began to write this piece about 20 times at least now and everytime I don’t know what to say! Me? Having no words? I guess I didn’t know how to put the words together how I was feeling because I maybe I felt ashamed? It is no secret that I have struggled on my weightloss journey since Christmas, I have had my losses and gains but I wasn’t moving in the direction I wanted I was finding myself maintaining the weight I was basically before Christmas. I wanted desperately to see a new stone bracket and get away from the 14s!! I was also struggling big time with the reality of loose skin, yes the dreaded loose skin. All of these factors were taking a tole on me both mentally and physically.

Little did I realise but I was in self distruct mode, self sabotage. How easy is it to kid yourself into having an extra bread or fibre allowence or picking at food that isn’t in your daily meal plan? Picking at your kids food? Having more of your daily dairy allowence? Kidding yourself thats its ok to binge after weigh in day? This was me for months. Half assing it, telling myself its ok?

I have recently been to the Algarve on holiday with my whole family. It was the most AMAZING holiday EVER!! Not because of the country or the sun and beautiful cocktails  (they help too) but because for the 1st time since we started holidaying there 10 years ago that I felt like me, the girl I have always wanted to be, the girl that has tried to jump out of that fat suit all her life. The girl that didn’t stick out walking down the strip or have to stop ten times walking up the mountainous number of steps from the beach. I was me for the 1st time in my life and I loved it. Walking through the airport I strided down to the gate with ease, my seat belt slipped on and clicked into place with no need for an extension or anxiety.  Most of all I sat back and completely relaxed, I had a good talking to myself and began to analyse the past few months.

My conclusion that I came to was that I am a very very happy person right now and I am enjoying being me and my loose skin well I love it, how could I hate it because it is my war wound and to be honest I would rather it be a physical than a mental wound. I have come to accept and overcome my deamons and now I can move on. I am now so excited to move into the new phase of my journey whatever it may be. If I didn’t love this big ol’ rollercoaster well would I be writing this? I doubt very much, I would most likely be drinking some shake or trying another fad diet to try drop a few pounds. It doesn’t matter what diet plan you follow, the only thing that matters is that you WANT to eat like this, you have to want it as much as you want to breath and you have to accept that this is for life. Im not an expert, I am simply another person doing their best to turn the negitive into a positive. You and only you can do this!

So here is to the next phase, the next chapter and thank you all so much for continually supporting me you will never know what it means xx

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TheNakedBlondie x

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25 Comments Add yours

  1. Katherine Daly says:

    Don’t be so hard on yourself, you have done great, continued success 😃😃😃

    1. Thank you Katherine x

    2. Thank you so much Katherine xx

  2. You are such an inspiration and I completely understand your words and how you’re feeling. Lovely post. If you get a chance I’d love for you to head over to my site fantasticmrsfox.com x

    1. Thank you beautiful 😙 oh I am a big fan of it always checking it out xx

      1. What! That’s made my day x

  3. Barbara says:

    Same as hon started this journey for my son’s communion to make him proud but in June last year health deteriorated August had a big operation and have lost and gained the same stone and a half numerous times. Communion was last week and I took a week off. Need to start going again. I can’t ever go back.

  4. Claire Anne Alley says:

    You are doing an amazing job.. stop being so hard on yourself.. I love following you and your recipes are always amazing… you are an inspiration xx

    1. Thank you so much Claire xx

  5. Rae mcdonald says:

    You are such an inspiration! I’ve been the same since Xmas, up n down not sticking to plan. I’ve lost 4 stone but need another 3 off. I will get right back on it along with you. You’ve done so well And look so happy. Keep up the good work. X

    1. Aww thank you Rae xx

  6. Emily says:

    you are amazing! What an inspiration. I lost 6 stone with weight watchers and after I lost my mum suddenly I have put it back on and more. I love reading your posts and looking at your recipes. I hope all goes well on the next part of your journey amazing lady xxx

    1. Aww thank you so much Emily xx

  7. liz Mc Cann says:

    Beautiful written piece nicola…..looking really well too..xx

    1. Aww thank you Lizzie xx

  8. Paulina says:

    Funny enough this is how I feel too at the moment. I lost so far 4,5 stone and I’m up and down my journey but as long as you keep going that matters. I’m a winner and so you are and lots of other people. Although we may fall down we always get up and we carry on. I want to prove to myself I can do it. Carry on hun and you will get there in no time.
    It would be great to see some videos on YT, have you thought about it?

    Take care lovely,
    Paulina xxx

    1. Aww thank you Paulina, I have and its something I am working on xx

  9. Bronágh MQuillan says:

    i think you look amazing, keep up the good work

    Bronágh x

    1. Aww thank you so much Bronágh xx

  10. Charmaine says:

    do love your recipes and blog. I know how you have been feeling, as a target member its hard to keep up the momentum all the time, it would be so easy to slip back into old ways. but like you, remember what things were like. it keeps you focused. keep up the good work,

    1. Thank you so much beautiful xx

  11. Deirdre says:

    Was crying reading this, well done you’ve come so far. Completely identify with the self-sabotaging but the first step in tackling that is becoming aware of it. Your an
    inspiration to so many of us xx

    1. Aww thank you Deride I cried writing it lol xx

  12. phenery2015 says:

    I lost 6st last year, the motivation was my daughter’s wedding in Mexico, so I went had a brilliant time, proud mother of the bride, proud of myself, came home end of April knowing and accepting a gain after 2 weeks all inclusive and lots of cocktails, but I’m struggling to get back on plan, I’ve lost the motivation but I know if I don’t then I will be back where I started, your post has inspired me!! Never give up, it will always be a struggle but it is so worth it, so this time I’m doing it for me because I’m worth it. Good luck on your journey Nicola, you will get there! Love your recipes and pics!!

    1. Thank you so much and best of luck to you too xx

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